from incompetance to eloqence

(please don’t) bite me.

last thursday, i was bitten by a dog. yes, you read that correctly. not playfully bitten. the dog was trying to hurt me. and it did hurt. what was at first a bloody scrape accompanied by a small puncture wound has now turned into a bruise the size of a small orange that continues to change colors as the days pass. it’s still sore. 

i am now having dreams about dogs attacking me. in every dream, there is an angry dog somewhere that tries to bite me. i have never been afraid of dogs, but these dreams are certainly trying to make me fear them. 

i’m glad i don’t have a dog. 

Today i have had way too much interaction with nature. This morning, my boyfriend pulled a little green spider out of my hair. Shortly after that, a strange looking black bug resembling an earwig fell into my shirt. Later this afternoon, i noticed my cats were both captivated by something in the ivy growing up the side of my mom’s house, and upon investigation saw that it was what i thought to be a small garden snake. I then followed the tail up the rest of its body and realized it was a snake much larger than what i had originally thought, longer than i am tall and bigger around than a water hose. My boyfriend attempted to kill it, but we couldn’t find it after equipping ourselves with a shovel and an axe. My mother now refuses to use her front door. When my boyfriend and i got back to my dad’s house and went outside to smoke a cigarette after the snake ordeal, a fat green lizard crawled up the brick wall and puffed is red neck flap out at us. We smoked quickly and retreated indoors where it is safe, and proceeded to take a four hour nap. So. How was YOUR day?

Fact: there is torrential downpour outside and, frankly, i fear for my safety as there are many trees in my backyard and my room is on the second story.
Fact: i have cramps that are ripping my uterus in half (that may have been an exaggeration).
Fact: my dad ever so kindly gave me a Trammadol to ease the pain, and i’m feeling much better =]
Fact: i will certainly regret staying awake until four in the morning when i wake up to go to Physics in four hours.

that is all, sat nam.

Hey, Tumblr.

i kinda forgot you existed for a little while. you missed a lot of juicy stuff, but i’m not one who talks about stuff nobody cares about, so you’ll never know.

life as 21 years is certainly a ride. i’ve learned a lot about myself that i will share when i can make them interesting enough to spend time reading. when my laptop gets fixed i promise to try and update you more; i still love you.

this beer is giving me indigestion.

at least i’m prettier

than the girls i hate. does that make me conceited? shit, i don’t care if it does or not (i’ll come back to that whole not caring thing).

i’ve learned recently that i suffer from histrionics. this word is defined as an extreme exaggeration in behavior or emotion. i would be referring to the emotion part; i feel things in extremes. when i’m happy, i’m ecstatic. when i’m sad, i’m distraught. when i’m mad, i’m livid. when i’m hyper, i’m uncontrollably energetic and slightly annoying. when i’m in love, i’m absolutely head over heels, see him every minute and never get tired of him in love. when i like you, i go out of my way to be friendly or make you laugh. when i don’t like you, you’ll definitely know it. that’s just the way i am. but, now that it’s been brought to my attention, i think i’d rather feel my emotions in extremes than be someone who can’t differentiate between their feelings.

however, this fact coupled with the fact that i don’t care what people think can make for quite a strong personality that can be hard to handle. so my mission is now to try and reign my emotions in. at least to a degree that is acceptable to people who don’t know me. then again, i don’t care what people think; it’s a vicious cycle.

but, i think to know me is to love me. to really know me, though, not just to know who i am and what you think i’m like. because i promise you it’s nothing like what you think. this turned into way more of a tangent than i meant for it to be… i think that is all.

bon nuit.